freaking out here

got my hands on my old 'Phycho-Educational Assessment' for the first time. I always knew I had a good memory, but had no idea what my working memory was actually in the 'very superior' category and that means it is better than 99% of others. Other categories of memory fall into very superior and high average, totaling a general memory index score of 'superior' classification range (better than 93%). It also says that I am number dyslexic, which I knew but didn't know had been proven, or was even a real thing. Apparently I am also arithmetically retarded, having a mathematical skill well below my education level. Grade 6 level to be precise. However my IQ falls into the superior range, which means I am smarter than 93% of others, a scary thought. I is also apparently a holistic thinker, whatever that means. Test also indicate I have a lot of difficulty making cognitive shifts, whatever those are. And a lot of ADHD stuff, but I already knew about all of that.

A Lot to think about.

Did my runes today

and they came up with all this weird shit.  Until I realised that it was not talking about money and assets (which was the obvious conclusion, but made no sense for me) but was talking about mental wellbeing.

All this stuff about how you have struggled, but it is all about to be worthwhile (past rune).  How things have been bad but they will get better (future rune)  How you need to be strong and protect yourself from mental conflict (present rune) made no sense, until I worked out the others.  The obstacle was a long struggle, which i will overcome, and the challenge came up as unrealistic goals, dreams that can never be.  I already knew that.  The last rune, the inner power I don't remember.  But when I did it again I got inheritance, history property and land which I got last time as the future rune.  Overcome obstacles and put your feet up, basically.

Tomorrow I get help and all will be ok, struggle over?  It says?  Or is it all subjective?  We'll see.