Insomnia

I don't sleep very well.  I never have.  Not even as a baby.  Dad tells stories of lying in bed reading a book while pushing my pram back and forth with his foot, trying to rock me to sleep.  That worked better than Mum trying to rock me to sleep in her arms.  Apparently when she though I must have been asleep, she'd look down and I'd be staring up at her wide awake.  I never took afternoon naps as a toddler like my brother did. I'm often partial to the odd nap these days, but that's due to a pretty hectic lifestyle.  My brother can sleep anywhere, at any time.  

At the moment my life is not hectic at all, and as a result I am not tired enough at the end of the day to sleep.

When I got my new doctor I told him I had trouble sleeping.  He told me, "oh that's normal, none of you can sleep".

I'm not allowed to have the strong, knock you out sleeping tablets because of my 'alcohol problem'.  Ok that's not what he said.  Dr said they wouldn't be a good idea because I drink.  I guess he's afraid I'll accidentally kill myself.  So he prescribed Melatonin, which is a hormonal sleeping tablet and has been proven to be effective when used with old people, and those with ADHD.  Interesting combo.

I can't honestly say if they work or not.  I have never had a stay awake all night insomnia experience when taking them, but maybe I was going to fall asleep anyway that night.  I've tried every herbal sleeping product available, teas, tablets, antihistamines that are supposed to make you drowsy, and those definitely don't work.

I took one tonight because I was lazy all day and have a job interview tomorrow, so my mind is a bit too busy.  It's only 11:30 but I'd like to get into the habit of sleeping regular human hours.

Network

An acquaintance started a community/page/group called Chronically Blogging Australians for people with disabilities or chronic illnesses who write blogs to share them and support each other.  I invited myself to join, as technically ADHD is a legally recognised disability, and well, this is a blog.

I've been checking out some of the other blogs in the network and wow, so many stories and personal accounts from amazing people who deal with a lot more than I do.  Some of these people have rare and serious conditions that threaten their lives, while I complain that I can't sit through a boring movie.  And although my Dad is constantly telling me that my drinking problem will kill me, that's a separate issue.  Or it is?

I'd put a link but I'm not 100% sure yet if it is a public facebook page and what will be on it.  Once I know I'll post it here.