I had to do a thing at work in front of people, so I needed to be really on my game. Normally I can do this job ok med free, but I'm super tired today so I thought taking a pill might be the go so I am not drifting off mid sentence while important people are looking on. Or looking bored when I am supposed to be listening intently. I think that's a major problem I have, even if I am mostly listening.
So after work (only an hour later) a friend called to tell me one thing. I also had one thing I wanted to tell him. He told me his news, I told him mine. Then I realised I had nothing else to say. It felt weird. I thought of something else that wasn't really important to tell him, just because I felt like I hadn't talked enough. Then I felt like I was giving him the awkward silence treatment, because there just wasn't anything else to say. It felt a little rude. He's a guy though, so that's probably how most of his phone conversations go.
Usually if you call to tell me something, you are in for a 20 minute conversation, 10 if you are really in a hurry and manage to get the answer or reply out of me as fast as you can. Usually I think of several things to talk about, often at the same time, and the poor person who called gets stuck talking about something completely different from what they called about. If they are also chatty and give a good back and forth, it could end up being 40 minutes.
This phone call, I listened to my friends reason for calling, but didn't feel the need to share every thought that passed through my brain. There may not have even been any. Turns out being a compulsive talker is cured a bit by taking Ritalin. Yay for not annoying so many people, minus for changing what people know as being my personality. It was sort of nice though.
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