further frustrations

So I called the number on the top of my referral, and said hi, my referral was sent to you three weeks ago. Just wondering if it was received, because I haven't heard anything. They took my name, said yes I'm in the system, how's July? Three months away huh. I was temped to ask what about if I wanted to kill myself next week, but I thought maybe a psychiatrists office would have to take that seriously and it might not be something you joke about. Seriously though, three months? Their initial consultation fee is also $495. Which is about $200 more than what I paid at the last place. Rural prices? Were they ever going to call me to make an appointment? Why is it so hard to be able to access psychiatric services? Four month wait? (Including waiting to see the GP and getting the referral sent) and hundreds of dollars? That's just nuts, no pun intended. I feel stressed out thinking about how far away that is. And depressed. They asked if that was ok, July, consultation fee. Well what choice do I have? So I'm booked in. Now I just have to worry about getting to there. I have enough medication left over from previous prescriptions for a month. I will save them for when I really need it. Lately I've been working with my supervisor and I have not been able to get off task because he's sitting there telling me what to type, and the work is interesting. I have other work to do that is boring however, and I don't want to waste time trying to get started on it when I could focus better and get it done faster. I'm a new employee and I'm being watched, I don't want to screw this up. This is my dream job and I'm terrified I won't be able to actually do it.